March 19, 2004

This is 6 years ago now and I have lived a lot since then.

My mom went into the hospital for the last time. It was another stage of the end of her life in Lachute.

It was a very unsettled time for me. As I read my journal there were lots of conversations with friends and lots of prayers.

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From Sunday March 21

When I come back from all this other stuff with Mummy
- my house will be here
- Bishop will be around
- my work will be there
- friends will still be part of my lie
- my writing
- my computer

So this a.m. Tobi the barn cat followed me into the barn. There was snow and he walked quickly. He got inside and rolled over a few times. He came up to me and was purring. As I leaned down to pet him I could feel the tears.

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From Wednesday March 31

I was looking in the desk. I found some of her writings and I started to cry.

I looked in the freezer. There were buns and some squares she had made. I started to cry.